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  “I want you, Logan. I feel like a bad person for doing it this way, but I think she’d resent us doing… this.” I waved my hand between us and his eyes darkened with need. “I can’t lose her as a friend.”

  Chapter Eight

  Logan

  I waited for room service to come before we got hot and heavy again. I wanted to enjoy her in this time together and I kissed her softly, facing her on my side. I touched her face, stroking back her hair as I moved to her jaw. I could sense by her noises and the way she moved that she loved everything I was doing to her. I wondered if she’d slept with a man before and from there, how many. I hated the idea of her with another man and was just pressing my body over hers when there was a knock at the door.

  We both let out ragged sighs, and I lifted my body to go to the door across the room. Holly remained on the bed as I opened the door and let the man roll in the tray, slipping him a bill before securing the door behind him. I glanced back at Holly and considered just taking everything over to her. I wanted her to stay in that bed, so I could finish what we started.

  “What is all that? I thought you just got wine.” Holly was walking towards me and I took in her tight jeans and fitted long-sleeved shirt. It showed off her sexy curves well, and I glanced back at the tray.

  “I got us some sparkling wine and strawberries. There’s chocolate and whipped cream for them.” I told her as her skin flushed pink. I indicated for her to sit down on the plush couch and watched as she did with a slow smile. I poured some wine and set the berries on the table, lifting the lid as she stared at the juicy fruit. Holly sipped her glass, and a smile crossed her face. “What is it?”

  “This feels like a movie or something. I’ve never done anything like this,” Holly admitted as curiosity struck me.

  “When you say like this, do you mean the room or sex in general?” She turned bright red, and I reached out to stroke her hair.

  “I’m not a virgin but I’m not experienced either. I guess I meant both.” Her voice was soft, and she shifted awkwardly against the cushions as I held her head, forcing her to look at me.

  “You are perfect the way you are, Holly.” I assured her, locking my eyes with hers. We enjoyed the wine, and I took a berry from the plate, dipping it in chocolate before feeding it to her. Holly stared at me in wonder as she took small bites, and I marveled at how her eyes changed color. How the hell could this woman be making me feel this way?

  We chatted about Calgary and New York as we ate. Holly had something of a sheltered life there and she beamed when she talked about how free she felt here. It was the way I felt when I talked about hockey and her enthusiasm was endearing. When we were done eating, I asked her to carry our glasses and then grabbed the bottle along with the chocolate and whipped cream. She raised an eyebrow, but I knew that she’d had enough wine to not be too shy. I’d never force her into anything to begin with.

  Holly followed me, kicking off her Vans as she sat down on the bed. I placed everything on the table beside it and dropped against the pillows as I reached for the remote. I found a new movie on as she moved to sit beside me, sipping her wine. I reached for mine, taking a long sip before setting it down and slipping my arm around her.

  It was Holly that turned towards me, kissing me hard as she moved up. Her arm slipped around my neck and I held her as I tilted my head to deepen it. Her tongue was eager as it met mine, and I felt my cock harden. I moved her body over mine slowly as I had in the woods.

  Holly kissed me long and hard, moaning against me. I knew that she could feel how much I wanted her as I rocked up, gripping her ass. I wanted her to feel all of me and Holly moaned as she gripped my hair. I knew that this was dangerous with being alone like this. I had trouble stopping once I hit a certain point and my cock was aching with a need for her. We kissed harder as our lips and teeth crashed together, our bodies moving together. Holly pulled away from me as she let out a ragged breath and I reached for the hem of her shirt. She moved back as I lifted it over her head, revealing a pale pink bra in sheer lace. It was enough for me to cup and squeeze her and I watched as her nipples pressed against the material. I stared into her eyes as I reached to unclasp the front, watching her nod. I let it fall away from her body and stroked her dark pink nipples with my thumbs as she closed her eyes and moaned. Fuck, she made me want to strip her bare and fuck her senseless.

  I settled with touching her and lowering my mouth to suck her nipples between my lips. She moaned my name, arching her back to offer me more as her body pressed against mine. I drew her between my teeth, hearing her cry out as I dragged my teeth over her skin.

  I liked it rough on the ice and my control extended to the bedroom. I knew that she wasn’t ready for all of me, but I’d give her bits and pieces to see what she could handle. Holly gripped my hair with one hand and I felt her tug at my shirt with the other, moving to lift it away as she fell back to the bed. I tossed it aside and reached for the button to her jeans as she stared up at me with stormy eyes. I unzipped them and pulled them down slowly as she wiggled, leaving the sheer underwear on for now. I glanced at the table, making sure I was close as I covered her body with mine for a long kiss. Our chests pressed together, mine thick with muscle against her perky nipples and the heat made me groan. I kissed her senseless for a while before reaching over to swipe some whipped cream on my finger.

  Holly gasped as I lifted my body and covered her pebbled nipples with the thick cream. I stared down at her before leaning down to lick her gently, just getting a taste. I inhaled deeply, smelling her desire as I revealed the skin underneath the sweetened cream. I covered her nipple with my mouth and sucked hard as she let out a ragged cry.

  “Logan. Oh, God.” Holly moaned as I sucked, my cock trying to poke through the thin material of my shorts. I pressed it against her leg as she rocked up, her underwear damp and hot. I finished with the cream on her nipples and moved down her body, kissing her stomach before I pressed my mouth over her dripping pussy. Holly moaned as I stroked her with my tongue, resisting the urge to rip this little strip of lace from her body. I licked harder, slipping them to the side as I circled her, feeling her swollen nub. Holly’s legs dropped open, and I sucked and nipped, the sounds of her pleasure filling the room.

  She came with a scream and a jerk, her juices coating my lips. Holly sounded feral as she cried out, held tightly in my arms. I extended the orgasm before pulling away, slipping her underwear down in the process. Holly fell to the bed in a heap, her eyes closed and cheeks pink. She looked fucking beautiful when she came for me and looking at her now, the cum was all over her. I could see where I bit her nipples and how red her pale skin was. I moved up and reached for my wine, drinking it in one gulp as I tried to cool my raging desire.

  I felt hands tugging at my shorts, looking down to see Holly trying to take them off. I allowed her to, my cock stiff and thick in front of her as Holly licked her lips. She looked at me and flushed again before leaning forward to take the tip into her mouth. I slipped a gentle hand into her hair, allowing her control as she moved slowly down, taking more of me in. I knew that I was large and allowed her time to adjust as I dropped my head back.

  Holly pushed me to my back, and I watched as she bobbed over me. Her mouth was wet and hot as she sucked me, gripping my cock tight with her heat. I knew that I was going to come, and I held her head with my hands.

  “Baby, I’m close. Do you want me to fill your mouth?” I asked as she whimpered against me. “I can put on a condom and come inside of you. I can come on your tits. Anything you want.”

  Holly drew back, and I gasped as I thickened, closer than I wanted to be. I started stroking myself as she watched, telling her to get on her back. Holly did, and I aimed for her reddened nipples, knowing that this was going to be a hard release. I leaned my head back as she moved before me, finding her slick pussy there and I edged inside an inch. Holly gasped, and I stilled as I stared at where our bodies were joined.

  “Fuck. I’m sorry,” I ap
ologized as she stared at me for a moment. “I’m clean. I’m so careful, Holly. I swear to you.” Was she going to let me finish this?

  Holy shit.

  “I’m on the pill. Shelly wanted me to get it and knew a clinic that wouldn’t rat me to my parents,” Holly told me as I breathed in. “I trust you. I want you.”

  I drove myself inside of her slow and deep as we both cried out. I never went bare with a woman. Ever. The way she felt so tight and hot around me made me thicken as I struggled to get a few more strokes in before I was coming deep inside of her. I stilled, feeling the jerk as I cried out her name and she pressed herself into me. She was coming with me and I gripped her hips to hold her there.

  I dropped to her side, an arm over her as I closed my eyes. I didn’t bring her here for sex much less sex like that. I thought that we could ease into this. Holly breathed heavily as I cupped her pussy, keeping myself inside of her.

  She was sipping her wine a few minutes later as I stared into her face. The only light was the TV, and she looked beautiful.

  “Do you have any regrets?” I asked her as she looked over at me. Her hair was damp and curled around her head as she smiled.

  “I can’t. I wanted this as much as you did.” Her words were soft and honest as she covered my hand with hers. “It was like a wildfire that wasn’t going to stop. We couldn’t stop.”

  “No. We couldn’t.” I slipped a finger through her folds as she moaned softly. We rested there together, our lips moving together before too long. “Will you stay here with me?”

  “I already said I might be gone for the night.” Holly assured me as I pulled away to look at her. “It’s scary how easy it is to lie.”

  “Baby, I don’t want you to.” I began to say before she covered my mouth with her finger.

  “I don’t want to tell Shelly or anyone else if this is just a fling. Why upset them when we could fade away?” Holly asked as pain filled my chest. I felt so torn since I always wanted women to be like this. With Holly, I wanted more.

  “Yeah. You might be right,” I forced the words out as I moved my hand to pull her against me. I knew that she was tired, and I kissed her softly as she closed her eyes.

  Chapter Nine

  Holly

  I woke up wrapped in someone’s arms and jumped slightly. I’d been having an erotic dream and my body was pulsing as I breathed in slowly. I looked around the room, seeing infomercials playing on the TV as my eyes moved around. I could tell that it was a hotel room as memories rushed through me of the night before.

  Logan.

  His mouth all over my body.

  My mouth on his.

  The feeling of him inside of me.

  I shuddered as I finally looked at the man beside me. He was peacefully sleeping, and I took in his rugged, gorgeous face. Logan could be a model if it weren’t for the scars that dotted his skin from the game. He was still the most stunning man that I’d ever seen, and I let my eyes rove over his thick arms that held me so securely, tracing his back gently as I smiled.

  This felt so fucking right. I knew that he was the forbidden fruit, but I wanted him. I needed Logan. How could I tell Shelly that? How could we tell his family about us?

  We had to be a fling. We’d have to end. There were so many reasons that this wouldn’t work out with us.

  I moved slightly, turning to face him. I slipped my hand down his body to find him half-hard. I gripped him softly and smiled as he moaned, his cock thickening in my grip. Logan stirred, his eyes fluttering open as he looked at me with dark eyes.

  He let me stroke him for a moment before turning to his back and hauling me over him. I bent down to kiss him hungrily. His cock pressed between our bodies. He was pressed against my wet pussy and I rocked to feel the necessary friction against my sensitive nub. I knew that I’d come fast when I finally felt him inside of me and rose a bit as he reached down to guide his cock into me. I sank down, groaning with him as I felt him fill me completely.

  “Jesus,” Logan moaned as I started to move over him. “You feel so damn good.” He reached for my hips and we moved together as I closed my eyes. I tried not to think about tomorrow morning when we’d be apart again. Even though he’d be home for a few days, I couldn’t freely see Logan whenever I wanted to. I had a car, but I also had a busy college life and couldn’t just travel a few towns over. Besides, Shelly knew that I wasn’t close to anyone enough to just stay the night. I was going to have a hard time pulling this off.

  I whimpered as Logan slipped over my sweet spot and knew that I was close. I dropped over him, kissing him as I gave him the control. Logan held me and fucked me with hard jerks of his hips, making me come within seconds as I cried out his name. Logan followed and held me as I slumped against him, breathing deeply.

  We went back to sleep and woke up when the sun was up. Logan told me that it was eight, asking if I needed to be back at the dorm for anything. I told him that I was okay for a few hours and he ordered breakfast from room service as I went to use the bathroom. This felt strange but oddly comfortable. I didn’t know Logan well, but I appreciated who he was as a man. I felt like I could like him as well as feeling attracted to him, which felt dangerous. That meant I could get attached.

  We ate with the windows open for the fresh air, sipping coffee as he asked me about my family. I told him that we did keep in touch but weren’t close. I was an only child and my parents were busy people. I admitted to being envious of his family as I looked out to the blue sky, trying to push away the fear of losing that. I wanted it all, but that was selfish, silly really. I was barely anything with Logan.

  He packed to go back to his house, and I dressed in my clothes from the night before. Logan gave me a t-shirt representing the team, and I balled it up to put into my large purse. I wanted to hide it from Shelly, at least for a little while. I might be able to introduce it naturally as if Logan gave it to me once we knew each other better. Shit. We did know each other, but I was planning to the times I’d see him at their parents, the torturous times that we would not be able to touch.

  I told him that I’d leave first, pulling up the app to get a car since it was too risky having him take me back to the campus. It was already bad enough that I’d need to be dropped off a few blocks away from the dorms to make it appear that I stayed there last night.

  I saw Shelly’s text when I unlocked my phone. She was asking who it was and telling me that she missed me. I never even read this last night and felt guilty as the following messages asked if I was okay. I considered answering but just got the ride, knowing I’d be back soon. I looked at Logan as I slipped my phone into my purse and he zipped up his suitcase before striding over to me.

  His eyes were hot on me as he cupped my face, leaning in for a slow kiss. I closed my eyes and gave in to it as pain filled my chest. I knew that walking away from him was going to be hard.

  “I had a great night, Holly.” His words were soft before he kissed me again as I wrapped my arms around his waist. I didn’t want to let go but reality was waiting outside in the warm sun. We both pulled back reluctantly, gazing into each other’s eyes as I dropped my arms. I didn’t know what to say to him and he cleared his throat as he shuffled his feet. “I’ll be in touch. Let me know that you got to the dorm safe. I hate not taking you.” His eyes were narrowed as he glanced at me and I sighed.

  “You know how risky that would be.” I reminded him as he nodded. I stepped back and made my way to the door, looking around the hotel room that changed my life. I gave him a long look before walking out and heading to the lobby to find my ride home. I lowered my head as I walked through the massive room after stepping off the elevator, not wanting to do this. I wanted to go back and throw myself back into his arms.

  I slipped into the nondescript blue car, leaning back as I greeted the woman driving. I’d fixed myself enough to be realistic for my lie and I closed my eyes as I played last night back in my mind. The campus was only about twenty minutes away and I was being dro
pped off a few blocks away within no time. I walked through the streets to the dorm and took several deep breaths before I walked into my building.

  Shelly was sitting at the small desk and looked back as I entered. Her smile was faltering, and I closed the door quietly.

  “I was worried about you. Is everything okay with your friend?” she looked genuinely worried and I felt guilt wash over me in waves.

  “Yeah. She’s okay now. It was the flu, and she was scared to be alone.” I went to my bed and set my purse down on the mattress, thinking about the shirt inside.

  “Who was it? Do I know her?” Shelly asked as I proceeded with the lie.

  “No. Just a girl that I’m partnered up with for a project. I guess we’ve been getting closer, and she tried me after a few other people. I couldn’t say no even though the movie sounded great.” I shrugged gently. “Was it good? Did you have fun?”

  Shelly beamed as she told me about the inappropriate comedy and I knew that she was distracted from my story. I dropped to the mattress, feeling exhaustion hit me as I dropped back to the pillows. She talked about the small bar they’d hung out afterward and I feigned regret at not being able to be there.

  “That sounds great, Shel. I think I’m going to take a nap. I didn’t sleep well last night.” I kicked my jeans off and got under the covers as she slipped some ear buds on. I made sure that she was working on her paper before I sent Logan a text telling him that I was home. I slipped the phone on my table beside the bed after muting it, closing my eyes as I closed my eyes. Even if Shelly got a hold of my phone, I had him under a different name. She wasn’t like that though.

  I woke up later that afternoon and stretched, feeling the parts of me that were still sore from the night with Logan. The dorm room was empty, and I yawned as I propped myself up on the pillows. I reached for my phone to see a text from ‘Kelly’ and read it with a smile. Logan told me that he was glad I was home safe but that he missed me. I responded in kind and deleted the messages before I checked my a few apps, lost in memories from last night. I heard the door and looked up to see Shelly coming inside with bags, smiling at me.