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  When I returned to the family, I noted that they were gone. I frowned and walked outside to see them talking to Logan just outside of the doors. He was standing beside the girl from the pictures and I froze as I saw her laughing with his family. He saw me and his eyes locked with mine as I pressed my lips together. Logan said something to the woman beside him and strode towards me, his eyes hard as I tried to step back.

  Chapter Sixteen

  Logan

  The moment I saw Holly walking towards us, something came back to life inside of me. I was at the top of my game with the team and even trying to make something work with Celia. I thought that I was over Holly but her face rocked my world all over again.

  I excused myself and walked to her, the words my mother told me still ringing through my ears. When I was in front of Holly, I took her arm and held her still in a dimmer part of the building. She gasped, and I stared into her gorgeous face. Even if Mom hadn’t told me that Holly was pregnant, I’d know. She was glowing and beautiful but I didn’t need to think about that right now.

  “What the fuck, Holly? Why is my mom telling me about the baby?” I hissed as her eyes widened. I pressed my hand to her stomach and felt the smallest of bumps, shaking my head in disbelief.

  “It isn’t yours. I had a fling with someone else after we were over. I had messed up on my pill and this is all on me,” she told me as I shook my head.

  “You don’t give yourself easily to a man, Holly. I knew that about you the moment I saw you.” It hurt seeing her again and the news of the baby was threatening to make me lose my mind. “It’s mine, isn’t it?”

  She opened her mouth to speak, looking past me to the small group. Laughter floated down to us and I watched as her eyes filled with tears.

  “I didn’t want to burden you. You have this career and a great future. You have a girlfriend.” Her voice was soft and pained as she looked behind me again and I watched a tear slide down her cheek.

  Rage filled me and I reminded myself that my family was just a few feet away from us.

  “I don’t have a girlfriend, Holly. Come to my house in an hour and I’ll explain. You will tell me all about what the fuck is in your head. I’ll text you my address.” I informed her before getting control of my emotions and turning to join my family and Celia.

  She wasn’t a girlfriend, more of a friend. She was our PT and needed to know us and besides that, she was cool. I knew that we’d been seen out in public and that there were pictures, and I remained quiet about it. A part of me knew that Holly might find out and wonder what she’d done walking away from us.

  Such an asshole move but one of the oldest tricks in the book. It only hurt that my family assumed I was dating Celia, and I didn’t correct them but I also never made the move to bring her over for dinner or formally introduce them. They only met at games if she showed up at the end.

  Celia watched me as I approached my family, a knowing look in her eyes. She was one of the few people that I trusted and knew all about Holly. My mom was staring at me worriedly and Shelly stared at Holly as she approached us. Holly was smiling, but it was one that didn’t reach her eyes. I neglected to introduce her to Celia and Shelly glanced at me with curiosity burning in her eyes. We made our way to the half-empty parking lot, and I shot Holly a sharp look before she looked away. I assumed that they were staying with my parents and I lived close. She could get there because I needed to know everything.

  I turned down my mom’s invite to come over, telling her that I was tired from the game. I headed home alone and changed into comfortable clothes after Celia stopped me by my truck.

  “What the hell was that?” Her brow was arched, and she stared at me. “I mean... It stopped everyone from talking. They looked like they were going to intervene.”

  “Holly is pregnant. From what I could feel and what little I know; the timing is just right for the baby to be mine. I told her to get her ass to my house so we could talk. I need some fucking answers, Celia.” I’d confessed everything to her; the pain at losing Holly, the idea that I felt like I was falling in love with her, and how much I missed her.

  “You sure that it’s yours?” Celia asked, and I nodded.

  “She isn’t the type to sleep around. She tried to tell me she was but I can see right through her. I need to talk to her and convince her that we can do this.”

  “Good luck. Keep me posted.” Celia’s brown eyes were warm as she smiled at me. She was a gorgeous woman, but I never felt anything towards her like some of the other players. That’s how we ended up good friends and it was refreshing for me.

  “I will. Have a great night.” I opened my car door, thankful that the fans weren’t hovering around. I didn’t feel like being polite tonight. I started the engine and headed out to my house, sending Holly the address before I left.

  She’d better fucking show up. I’d pay for a car if she wanted me to.

  I walked inside and changed into workout pants and a fitted Henley. It was getting cold outside, and I made the effort to start a fire in my living room, pacing as I sipped a beer. I heard my phone chime and picked it up to hear Holly’s voice at the gate. I’d given her name at the guard booth when arriving home and she needed me to let her into my driveway. I pushed the button and walked to the window to watch her drive up in Shelly’s car.

  “Where did you say you were going?” I asked once the door was opened, and I was looking at her.

  “I told her I was craving chocolate. I shouldn’t stay long,” Holly murmured as she walked inside and took a slow look around my sunken living room. Her eyes widened, and I smirked as I invited her in. “Are you alone?”

  “Yes, I’m alone. She’s not my girlfriend.” I reminded her as Holly looked at me for a moment.

  “Your family seems to think the same thing. Why is that?” Holly pressed as I opened my mouth to speak before closing it again.

  “I never defined anything. Celia is a good friend but nothing more. I’ve never felt any attraction towards her,” I confessed as Holly searched my eyes. “I haven’t been with anyone since you, Holly. I tried a couple of times but it never felt right.” I reached out my hand and watched as she took it, pulling her against me.

  “Nobody?” She asked as I stared down at her. Holly was still wearing my thick jersey, and I reached around the back to feel where my name was sewn in.

  “I told you that I was settling down already, Holly. You sealed the deal for me.” She shivered as I stroked her hip gently, longing to touch her small stomach again. “Why did you hide this from me?”

  “You’re a successful hockey player with the entire world ahead of you. I’m just a college student that’s too young for this and overwhelmed. I didn’t want to back you into a corner.” Her voice was soft and so damned sweet that I squeezed my hand around her curves.

  “A corner. I’ve tried to contact you a few times because I wanted to know that you were safe. Do you think I’d feel backed into a corner?” My eyes were dark as I traced her cheek with my hand. “I didn’t want things to end the way they did.” I dropped my hand to touch her stomach over the jersey, watching her shudder. “Now that I know about this, I want you to let me the fuck back in. This is my baby.”

  “I didn’t want to force you into anything,” she whispered as I raised a brow at her.

  “What were your plans then?” My words were low as I anticipated her answer. I knew that she was more than likely keeping it as far along as she was but the option of ending this life made me sick inside.

  Holly stared at me before tears started to slide down her cheeks. Pain filled her eyes as she dropped her face down and sobs tore through her.

  “I was going to give the baby up for adoption.” I stilled as rage flooded me, knowing that I had to let it pass. Holly was young and undoubtedly frightened of this entire situation. She didn’t have the confidence to approach me about it with her preference of running. I could not take this out on her.

  “I won’t let you give my baby aw
ay, Holly. I want to be a part of everything. I can take care of the both of you.” I spoke softly as she pressed her face into my chest.

  “I was scared. I can’t tell my parents about this since they’ll never support me. I lied about things and told your family that it was some random guy and that hurt so much. This is their family growing inside of me.” I lifted Holly carefully and brought her to the couch, holding her in my arms. “I thought you had a fucking girlfriend and moved on. If you wanted me so much why did you let everyone believe that?”

  “I wanted you to be jealous.” Holly laughed brokenly as I stroked her hair.

  “The man that has everything at his feet wanted to make me jealous. I am just a girl, Logan.” She tried to remind me as I cupped her face, raising her chin so I could meet her eyes.

  “You are not just a girl. You are beautiful and genuine, Holly. You made me feel alive inside in a way that nobody ever has. I was willing to go all the way for you.” She pressed her lips together, and I took in the new reality in my life. “Stay with me this time. Holly. Let’s work on this and see where it goes. At any rate, I’ll be an amazing father to our child. I promise you that. I want more but I’d settle for that. I need you in my life again.”

  Holly slumped against me and I held her against me. I’d only been with this woman a handful of times but she changed everything for me. I wanted all of her but I’d make myself settle for co-parenting if that was what she wanted. I would not let Holly feel alone in this. As fast as this happened with us, it was everything I wanted and needed in my life.

  I asked her about the baby after some time. She told me when she suspected the pregnancy and confirmed it, breaking me inside when I realized that she was all alone. She didn’t even have Shelly to help her through. Holly told me about the appointments that she’d already had and showed me the first ultrasound photo on her phone. The original was framed at her dorm. I stared at the tiny blob on the screen amazed that this was my baby. Holly even played the heartbeat for me, making my own heart jump into my throat.

  “I want to go to every appointment with you that I can from now on,” I told Holly as she nodded. She was staring at me and I took a chance, leaning in to kiss her. Holly stilled, her lips soft against mine as she moaned softly. The kiss deepened slowly as we moved together. Holly moved with me, pressing her tongue forward against mine as she moved to straddle me. I felt her heat through her jeans and cupped her ass hard, pressing up against her as she whimpered. Fuck, I was so hard and I needed to be buried inside of Holly.

  “I want to either tell my family you’re staying here with me tonight or just that we’re together. We can talk to them about everything later but I need to feel you wrapped around my cock.” I spoke against her lips and she let out a soft cry.

  “I’ve been missing you. I did anyway, but the pregnancy made me nearly desperate for your cock. I need to come so bad with you and my toys just aren’t cutting it for me,” Holly confessed as heat rushed through my groin. I was hurting now.

  “You have toys?” I asked as she giggled sweetly.

  “I’ve been a bit horny lately,” Holly confessed as I groaned. I reached for my phone and sent a message to Mom that Holly was with me and would be back soon. Throwing it to the couch, I lifted her and carried Holly to my room. She didn’t even care about the text, so lost in desire as she lifted the jersey over her head. I took in the lace bra that held her enlarged breasts, my mouth watering at the sight of her big nipples. I pounced on her, unclasping the front and opening it before burying my face in her chest.

  “You’re so beautiful,” I murmured to her before pressing my lips over her hot skin. Holly slipped her hands into my hair and pulled me closer, groaning as I sucked a nipple into my mouth. Fuck she was so ready for this.

  I worshiped her before we were both stripping down, desperate to feel each other again. I kissed her mouth as I touched her stomach, sliding my hand down to her dripping pussy as she jerked against me. I made Holly come easily with my fingers and then my mouth, tasting her until she begged me to fuck her. I positioned myself between her legs, in awe of the fact that she was pregnant with my baby.

  I slipped into her, feeling her tight heat wrap around me. I cried out as I stilled, allowing her to adjust as well as enjoy the feeling of her complete grip on me. We started rocking together and Holly was as aggressive as I was as we fucked hard. This was the one to make up for lost time and the next one would be sweet and slow to prove to her how much she meant to me. I drove myself in as she rocked against me, taking me deeper. Her feet were pressed against my chest and nothing was as hot as Holly letting all her inhibitions go with me. She cried out my name as she came again, and I felt her tighten around me in spasms. I managed to jerk inside of her a few more times before shooting deep inside of her pussy.

  “Holly. Fuck me but you feel perfect around me.” I murmured as I pulled out slowly, face pressed into her neck. “This is all I want in life.”

  “I think that you need hockey as well. It is your job.” Her voice was weak, and I laughed in agreement.

  “So, how did we manage this? Weren’t you on birth control?” I asked her as she sighed.

  “Yes. I was religious about taking it but you must have super sperm or something. You broke the barrier.” I smiled to myself in pride. “I guess we should have used a condom from the beginning. I didn’t think about that small percentage of it not working.” Holly let out a breath, and I pulled back to look at her.

  “I don’t regret this. Not completely. It’s going to be difficult at times but we’ll make it work.” I told her as she smiled.

  “Do you mean that?” Holly murmured as I nodded. We turned to the side. still holding onto each other. “I wish I would have told you from the beginning, if that’s the case.”

  “I wish you would have. You won’t be going through this alone.” I stroked her hair, and we made love one more time with her on top. I watched her tits bounce with the bobbing of her hips, so hard that it was painful. She moved slow but deep and we came together before she dropped down to the bed. I could see that she was tired and allowed her to fall asleep before walking out to the living room to call my mom.

  “Hello. Is Holly okay?” She asked in a gentle voice as I smiled ruefully. The truth was out there now.

  “Sleeping. Can we come over tomorrow and talk over breakfast?” I asked as I stood on the deck, overlooking my view of the trees.

  “We can. I’ll make something special.” Mom promised before she spoke again. “It was you all along, wasn’t it?”

  “The baby? Yeah. We had an abrupt ending before she even knew about that. It was complicated. We’re working in it.” I confessed as she laughed softly. “Is Shelly okay without her car?”

  “She’s in her PJ’s and drinking wine, cursing the both of you. She’ll be fine.” Mom laughed as I shook my head. “She might lay into you tomorrow.”

  “I’ll be ready. Holly is special, Mom.” I told her as warmth flooded my chest.

  “She is. I knew that all along.”

  I ended the call by telling her that I loved her. I grabbed some water and walked back to my bedroom to stare down at Holly again. She was curled up and I let my eyes rove over her bare skin. Her stomach was still small and I don’t think I’d know she was pregnant just from seeing her clothed. Her breasts were bigger and judging from earlier, more sensitive than before. She came hard just from my mouth sucking and biting them alone. I sat down at the edge of the mattress, letting it sink in that we were out in the open now. I was having a child with this woman and proud to share that with the world. I curled up behind her and pulled Holly against me, thinking ahead to a future where she’d be here every night with me. There was no way she could have a baby in a college dorm unless she moved to an apartment with Shelly.

  Fuck that. I wanted her with me.

  Chapter Seventeen

  Holly

  I woke up in a big bed with sunlight shining through the windows. When I felt arms wr
apped around me, I smiled and pinched myself.

  I wasn’t dreaming. I was with Logan. I pressed back against him, feeling a delicious ache between my thighs as I let my eyes drop closed again. He hardened, and I shivered with need as my body responded, arching against him. I felt Logan slide his arm up to cup me in his large hand, tweaking my nipple as I bit my lip.

  “Morning, gorgeous,” he murmured in a hoarse voice as I felt his lips against my hair that I was certain was an utter mess. “Is the rest of you as ready for me?” He plucked my nipple as I cried out. I was wet between my legs, aching for him as I moved my hand to grip his cock. He was thick and hard and I felt him stiffen behind me.

  “So ready. I can’t get enough of you,” I told him as I turned to my stomach, moving to my knees. I needed him deep this morning and Logan let out a ragged moan as he moved behind me. He plunged into me with one deep thrust as I let out a low moan, gripping the pillows. “Fuck me hard,” I begged as he held my hip and began thrusting as I rocked back against him.

  The release was explosive as I screamed his name. I never needed a man more than I did Logan in this moment. He cleansed me and made me feel safe as we came together. He gave me hope for a future as a mother because I knew now that I’d never give up this little miracle in my stomach.

  “I told Mom that we’d be there for breakfast today,” Logan told me as I flushed a deep pink.

  “Oh, God. They know I slept here last night. Am I allowed back into their house?” I asked as he chuckled.

  “I don’t think anyone is angry with us, though Shelly might have a thing or two to say. She’ll get over it because I know she’s excited to become an aunt, and she loves both of us.” I assured her as Holly groaned.

  “I was so hung up on hiding this from her and look at the mess we’re in. I’m sorry, Logan. I thought I was doing the right thing.” I murmured as we dropped back down to the bed.